I just come back here sometimes, to see you and to have a one way conversation. Even though I have so many friends and family around me, I am still so alone with the feelings of hurt from the horrible things that have happened over the last few years involving lies, manipulation, potential lawsuits and things that just are not necessary through all of this loss. So many like you are gone that would be sanity to all of this. It is just so hard to navigate and make sense of.